I’m tired. Just finished smoking a chicken I won’t be eating. It smells really good but I don’t even want any. That’s how it usually is with me and chicken. Anyway, for me it was baked sweet potatoes chips and brown rice under a spinach and zucchini casserole. No bread. No cheese. No meat. Oh, how I miss cheese. How grateful to God I am that I’m able to even have the choice. Day 5 — I’m counting as a success.
Today we went to the new members class at our church and formed a small group. I like small groups. In my home church we called them Discipleship groups. I like them because they are a place to mature in the word. I like wrestling with my faith in a safe enviornment of other believers attempting to discern the word for themselves. Our new church has a unique approach to small groups they categorize you based on your life stage. We’re in the married with children group. From the day’s activities I can see we found the right home. It is a place I can be fed and where I can contribute. We’ve been praying for balance. I believe we can find that here. I’m excited.
During the class it helped that I was in a room full of many others participating in the fast. The Mr. isn’t one of them. When it was time for a break in the 5 hour session the refreshments consisted of fresh fruit, bottled water, and fruit juice. I personally have been juicing this entire fast. I hadn’t had anything other than water with a bit of lime squeezed in this morning so the tangerine and water was right on time. The Mr. was hoping for coffee. In our group are 3 other couples so far. We chose roles or responsiblities and we took the time to talk to each other and get to know a little bit about each other while we were there. I’m going to finally have people to talk to that have something in common with me. We equally love God and want to participate in his kingdom here on earth and into eternity.
During my devotion time I again spent time in the book of Daniel. I spent time pondering God grace and mercy for mankind and for my own life. I’m officially in meditation.
For my juices today? I waited until this afternoon to make my juice. I simply didn’t have enough time to do it this morning hence the water with a splash of lime. When we returned home I made 2 large juices. One consisted of grapefruit and garlic. The other juice consisted of apples, carrots, cucumber, and ginger. I drank the latter first. It filled me up and held me through dinner. Right now I’m finishing a quart of water after which I’m going to bed. The grapefruit and garlic will be my breakfast. Until tomorrow.
7:43 pm. It was a tough day at work. I held firm and I’m still hanging in there. My energy level was a little lower today and it showed. But, my belly wasn’t bloated or uncomfortable and I spent less time running back and forth to the facilities. I’m really too drained mentally to write much about today. I just didn’t want to not write something because I’m trying to establish a habit. I may be in the mood to put some more on here tomorrow but right now, right now. I’m resting.
It’s been an eventful day. I’m a little tired but again it’s been an eventful day. Quite a bit happened at work that I’m not really able to share. But, I think it all worked out ok. As far as my energy I was a bit more sluggish than I’d like to be today. I didn’t have a headache though. A couple of times I thought that might actually happen but in the end it didn’t. I drank 3 juices today. I’d made them last night. They were tasty but I forgot to take pictures. One was an intense green drink. I added Vitamineral Green to that one. The other 2 contained beets. One was beets and oranges. That was in a word…Excellent. The other also had celery, carrots, and apples. It looked like blood but tasted quite good. I shared some with one of my coworkers. She was surprised at how sweet it was. The other thing though is that because each juice contained a whole beet I know by this time tomorrow my insides should be good and clean.
When I got home from work I found out my son discarded the last of my chipotle chili. I wasn’t happy about that since my original intent was to snack on that before making the spinach and zucchini casserole. But, it was my fault. I didn’t realize I hadn’t put it back in the fridge when I ran out the door to work this morning. My husband didn’t put it away either. My son was just doing his job by cleaning up. The spinach and zucchini casserole was, edible. It was missing a flavor and I’m not sure what it is. I was out of basil so that might be the taste that would pull the meal together. I ate it over quinoa. I probably have like 4 more servings of that. Next I’ll make the Jamaican chili.
I’m really tired so even though I planned out my juice for tomorrow I really am too tired to make it. In a minute after I take my digestive enzyme I’m going to bed. I need to be up at least 30 minutes earlier to make the juice.
On the spiritual note I completed my devotion. It was about the changing of my name or what’s in a name. It helped with my meditation on what to do next and how to control my tongue. I have some evidence of that so I’m going to find out what is next. Until tomorrow. I’m done.
It’s 9:38 pm and I made it through Day 2 of this Daniel Fast. I went back to work today. I followed the pastor’s advice and proclaimed my fast so now I have approximately 41 accountability partners since all of my coworkers delight in reminding me of my journey. I’m good with it though. Surprisingly I wasn’t hungry and Praise God! my headache was gone when I awoke this morning. I’m not a big morning eater so I decided to juice the first portion of the day and eat solid the afternoon and evening. This morning I alternated between juice and water until about noon. I then ate more of the chipotle chili from last night. I finished the rest of my day with water.
Physically my throat is a little sore and I’ve been eliminating a lot but otherwise I’m in good shape. Oh, I’ve been unusually tired but I know it is from the detox effect of the fast not from lack of nourishment. Spiritually, Ive been reading the book of Daniel in the bible along with the devotionals included in Kristen Feola’s book, The Ultimate Guide to the Daniel Fast. It includes a daily reading with additional scriptural references. It helps me to formulate my prayers. In the meanwhile I’m wandering around my Kindle library and realize at some point in the recent past I acquired a book that serves as sort of a commentary on the life of Daniel. It is fascinating that I’d find it at this time and I’ve been filling some of my time with that. It is called The Book of Daniel (Prophecy for Today from Daniel, David, and Haggai) by Russell Stendal. Finally, at the end of each day I check the church website for the daily devotional. I’m about to do that now. I just wanted to get this down first.
I made 3 juices for tomorrow and I’ll take some more chili for lunch. After work I stopped at the local market and picked up produce for a Spinach-Zucchini casserole. I will definitely make that tomorrow with some quinoa to go on the side. As the the juice I made an all green juice with kale, romaine hearts, spinach, parsley, celery, ginger and lemon. I made an apple, beet, and carrot juice that included ginger but nothing green except one of the apples. And I made a surprisingly tasty beet-orange juice. It looks like blood but tastes like desert. I enjoy the juices better at room temperature but unfortunately I can’t store them that way. So, tomorrow I’ll see how they taste cold.
Anyway, that’s all for now. I’m going to finish this last exercise before I head to sleep for the night. Happy New Year.
I decided to participate in the Daniel Fast practiced by my church. This year 2013 I’m focusing on getting closer to God so I can hear his direction. I’ve been truly blessed and increased in 2012. I’m going through a transition and I see evidence daily that this is where I should be. So, in celebration of finally finding my place I’m giving this 21 days to Him! Today is Day 1.
So far, I’ve abstained from all the forbidden foods. I have a raging headache yet I haven’t taken any sort of pain killer. I think that would defeat the purpose. I know it is a withdrawal from caffeine. So instead I’ve used my brand new juicer to create juices from various fruits and vegetables. I’ve also made a chipotle chili for dinner. I’m looking forward to trying that. I got the recipe in the Ultimate Daniel Fast book I’ve been reading. It has some devotionals and some recipes. I’ve completed Day 1 which is the confession portion. Now I’m just hoping to make it through the night. My head is splitting.
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I just got off the phone with one of my employees. She is self destructing before my eyes and she doesn’t even see it. I have a very low tolerance for trash and tonight along with the past couple of weeks she has tested all of it. I give everyone the opportunity to be themselves but we still have a job to do. The holidays are supposed to be a time to rejoice. Instead I’m left with a long line of people that must be replaced in order to make the transition. To make matters worst I have to replace them to justify my own existence. I tell my people, “Everyday, we have to show our employer that we should be welcomed back the following day.”
It’s hard being a leader. But a leader I must be. I set the tone and the example because literally that is my shop. I’m shaking my head because I’ve been where a lot of these young people have been. But I’ve been told a fool can only learn from their own mistakes. They don’t learn from the mistakes of others. So, while I was trying my best to get through Christmas without firing anyone it looks like I’m about to make that happen this very week. Firing 2 and demoting another. Wow. Praise God for integrity.
Now that I look at this the title simply doesn’t fit. I love what I do. Even self employed there is a good chance I’d be going through this on my own. At least I have a strong support system. Time to sound the alarm.
Ok, so I’m on my ipad scanning the day’s events. Preparing for the day so to speak and I come across a bunch of videos showing how to do what I’m desperate to learn how to do. And the videos make it all look simple. Why don’t I find these things when I’m actually looking for them? Always when I just want to kick back and relax do I find the answer to many of my questions. Then that reminds me that I’m not actually doing anything at that particular moment even though I have a TON of things I could be doing. smh.
My point before I took that last tangent is that I’m actually getting motivated. This evening before sitting down to write this I actually took the time to update some software and to review what I’m working on. I have a lot of projects in various stages. This weekend I took a break from EVERYTHING. I had not done that in a good while. But, I’m getting motivated again. Enough to actually possibly do something this time. You know, set an intention and make it happen. Yes, I can do it this time. But not today, lol. Good night.